arg. sometimes i wonder what's wrong with me for serious.... i have great friends (who are always there for me.. even the ones who i have hid from for years)... a pretty cool family (a really awesome Kelly and Stephen)... i have a kitten (hmm..2 kittens).. and im female vocals for an actual band (that doesn't have a name.. we're thinking "play on words").. Joe says ima rock star on da guitar and i can paint and i can play ddr decently now... i have a boy (...woulda been plural if kelly hadn't knocked some sense into me..)...i got accepted into a college in Rome... My grades and test scores are above average... i'm not terribly mean or unattractive...
its not like theres nothing good about me or my life. i know it... i can list all the good things... but i'm still being all 'teenagerish' about everything. i still feel like something's missing... i s'pose its like that for everyone. ack i just wish i'd stop feeling terrible.. because life is good. i have it good... very good.
"i don't think those who truly love you will ever leave you. They may not be next to you, but they are always there."
hmmm i still think everyone who you love will leave you. we always forget that we were in love... or we think that the feeling wasn't anything compared to the next obsession. its like... we love something.. and a year later we wonder why we ever felt like that. if i didn't document the convos between me and my best friend i wouldn't even remember all of his promises. i guess its not fair to hold him to anything then.
"i'll never leave you." "you dont have to lie to me." "i'll always be here."
